conversation with Jeffrey
Its Oh So Bjork (12:24:02 PM): heyo ^_^!!
mind bleeds grey (12:24:17 PM): hi
Its Oh So Bjork (12:24:33 PM): how's it going?
mind bleeds grey (12:24:49 PM): not the best morning
mind bleeds grey (12:24:54 PM): but ok
Its Oh So Bjork (12:24:57 PM): !!!! why?
mind bleeds grey (12:25:47 PM): people just talk crap about me and i dont even do anything to them
mind bleeds grey (12:25:55 PM): its kind of frustrating
mind bleeds grey (12:26:41 PM): so how are u?
Its Oh So Bjork (12:26:56 PM): well i did sort of want to talk to you about something like that
mind bleeds grey (12:27:08 PM): hm?
Its Oh So Bjork (12:27:55 PM): well, when you tried to get courtney to target nate and me
Its Oh So Bjork (12:27:58 PM): i thought that was really uncool
mind bleeds grey (12:28:20 PM): i told her she would be in a better position
mind bleeds grey (12:28:41 PM): i was tryin to be nice and help her klutzy self
Its Oh So Bjork (12:28:57 PM): but why at the possibly expense of nate and myself?
mind bleeds grey (12:29:17 PM): because you guys were gonna get rid of me after her
mind bleeds grey (12:30:29 PM): and i was really upset cause i thought i was cool with you guys
Its Oh So Bjork (12:30:42 PM): i honestly and really confused about what you're saying
Its Oh So Bjork (12:30:51 PM): *am really confused
Its Oh So Bjork (12:30:58 PM): who was gonna get rid of you after courtney?
mind bleeds grey (12:31:08 PM): you guys were if i stayed on ur tribe
mind bleeds grey (12:31:25 PM): it was really upsetting
mind bleeds grey (12:31:38 PM): i felt like i had been used
Its Oh So Bjork (12:32:06 PM): you thought i would have voted you off after courtney?
mind bleeds grey (12:32:14 PM): yes very much so
Its Oh So Bjork (12:32:21 PM): why exactly?
mind bleeds grey (12:32:58 PM): yall didnt pick me to be on ur tribe and then you guys rank me as untrustworthy
mind bleeds grey (12:33:18 PM): so i saw how everyone saw me and that i was out of the loop
mind bleeds grey (12:33:49 PM): i thought we were cool
Its Oh So Bjork (12:34:52 PM): i didn't get nearly as much of a say in picking the tribes as i wanted to
Its Oh So Bjork (12:35:10 PM): i was just really surprised that you would go to courtney, who you hate, and expect her to do something for you
mind bleeds grey (12:35:55 PM): well i thought the girl would be somewhat intelligent enough to realize she was in danger
mind bleeds grey (12:36:08 PM): but i over estimated her
Its Oh So Bjork (12:38:17 PM): i was still really surprised by it since i never sensed from you that you thought you were out of the loop
mind bleeds grey (12:38:50 PM): well i felt that way after i saw results and then the tribes were picked
mind bleeds grey (12:39:07 PM): i felt like i had basically been betrayed
Its Oh So Bjork (12:39:49 PM): i didn't have a single problem with you until i heard that
Its Oh So Bjork (12:39:55 PM): now i'm just really pissed
mind bleeds grey (12:40:27 PM): well im sorry you're mad
mind bleeds grey (12:40:44 PM): but i dont want people to like blindsight me
mind bleeds grey (12:41:22 PM): and like you guys basically stopped talking to me so i was pretty much sure that yall were done with me
Its Oh So Bjork (12:41:56 PM): honestly? you were on the other tribe. i had my own tribe to look after for the time being.
Its Oh So Bjork (12:42:11 PM): i didn't talk to katy, brian, nesya, beth, or danielle really at all
Its Oh So Bjork (12:42:27 PM): and before the switch i talked to one person on the other tribe who isn't even here anymore
Its Oh So Bjork (12:42:37 PM): it has nothing to do with who i'm close with or not
mind bleeds grey (12:43:10 PM): well it was a bad strategic move on part but i live and learn
Its Oh So Bjork (12:43:33 PM): brb
mind bleeds grey (12:43:38 PM): i mean i hear you were talking negatively about me and it just really shocked me
mind bleeds grey (12:43:39 PM): ok
Its Oh So Bjork (12:45:00 PM): you heard that i was talking negatively about you?
mind bleeds grey (12:45:16 PM): yes just recently actually
Its Oh So Bjork (12:45:39 PM): up until i found out that you were so against me i had nothing bad to say about you
Its Oh So Bjork (12:45:47 PM): but i am just disgusted at you to be honest
mind bleeds grey (12:46:07 PM): im sorry you feel that way towards me for playing the game
Its Oh So Bjork (12:46:28 PM): you were playing on the other tribe, trying to manipulate somebody you hate
Its Oh So Bjork (12:46:34 PM): that's not survivor, that's retarded
mind bleeds grey (12:46:52 PM):
mind bleeds grey (12:47:05 PM): did you just call me retarded?
Its Oh So Bjork (12:47:17 PM): i'm saying that what you did was retarded
Its Oh So Bjork (12:47:59 PM): i honestly was looking forward to being back on a tribe with you
mind bleeds grey (12:48:08 PM): well im sorry i disgusted you i didnt know what i did was that severe
Its Oh So Bjork (12:48:08 PM): truly i was
Its Oh So Bjork (12:48:23 PM): it also showed that you don't consider me a friend
mind bleeds grey (12:48:24 PM): but like i have no hard feelings towards you
Its Oh So Bjork (12:48:28 PM): i would neevr do that to a friend
Its Oh So Bjork (12:48:33 PM): *never
mind bleeds grey (12:48:37 PM): wha?
mind bleeds grey (12:48:47 PM): i think thats going a bit to far
mind bleeds grey (12:48:51 PM): thats why i was so hurt
mind bleeds grey (12:49:01 PM): like had noah or nathan did something like that to me
mind bleeds grey (12:49:08 PM): i wouldnt have been that upset
mind bleeds grey (12:49:15 PM): cause i expected something like that from them
mind bleeds grey (12:49:23 PM): but for you to do it
mind bleeds grey (12:49:32 PM): like i was really upset about that
Its Oh So Bjork (12:50:30 PM): not picking you for a tribe?? i was friends with everybody on huron except for cody and courtney; it was a really hard choice. i was literately praying that brian would pick courtney or cody for an easy boot so you could be on this tribe
Its Oh So Bjork (12:50:40 PM): i just can't believe you didn't even come to me if you had a problem
Its Oh So Bjork (12:50:47 PM): you had to go behind my back like that
mind bleeds grey (12:51:25 PM): after the results and the pick i didnt see any reason cause it seemed as though you deemed me useless and didnt care about me
Its Oh So Bjork (12:51:54 PM): why didn't you come talk to me then, like i'm talking to you now?
Its Oh So Bjork (12:52:04 PM): you just jumped to all of these conclusions
Its Oh So Bjork (12:52:12 PM): and honestly i feel like you've been brainwashed
mind bleeds grey (12:52:59 PM): i can admit that not coming to you was VERY immature on my part
mind bleeds grey (12:53:23 PM): and no it was not smart to attempt a dumb move like that
Its Oh So Bjork (12:53:46 PM): i'm just really mad because i feel like we can't move past it
mind bleeds grey (12:53:53 PM): im not even sure what Courtney showed you, because i can almost feel as though
mind bleeds grey (12:54:01 PM): she didnt show you everything
Its Oh So Bjork (12:54:17 PM): maybe she didn't
mind bleeds grey (12:54:19 PM): but the original intention
mind bleeds grey (12:54:29 PM): was not so much on you, but on nathan
mind bleeds grey (12:54:48 PM): and i've even said countless times to other people that i feel as though they are using you
mind bleeds grey (12:55:12 PM): i haven't necessarily been brain washed but it was just like
mind bleeds grey (12:55:17 PM): things changed
mind bleeds grey (12:55:40 PM): and i started thinking "okay maybe he was just playing me the whole time and really didnt like me start with"
Its Oh So Bjork (12:56:18 PM): honestly i can fake being nice, but i can't fake having good conversations; i really felt that our conversations were genuine and fun
mind bleeds grey (12:56:32 PM): thats why i was SOOO upset
mind bleeds grey (12:57:02 PM): im like, okay he would never do anything against me
mind bleeds grey (12:57:20 PM): and to my knowledge you haven't
mind bleeds grey (12:57:32 PM): but i felt as though you viewed me as expendable
mind bleeds grey (12:57:56 PM): and i just felt like all the conversations were just gameplay
Its Oh So Bjork (12:58:30 PM): that's not the type of person i am
mind bleeds grey (12:58:36 PM): like it really hurt to hear that you would say something of me in a negative light
Its Oh So Bjork (12:58:53 PM): i would have nothing bad to say about you if you didn't throw the first punch
mind bleeds grey (12:59:25 PM): but see i didnt talk negatively about you, i was simply advising courtney to watch out for you guys
mind bleeds grey (12:59:28 PM): and i feel as though
mind bleeds grey (12:59:35 PM): more emphasis was put on you
mind bleeds grey (12:59:41 PM): then what there really was
mind bleeds grey (12:59:56 PM): because that conversation was in LARGE part about Nathan
mind bleeds grey (1:01:31 PM): i mean i guess it was naive of me to think you would pick me since i dont know what kind of realtionship you had with the other people on the tribe
mind bleeds grey (1:01:59 PM): but it looked to me as if i was just useless
Its Oh So Bjork (1:02:02 PM): you have no idea how much i even dreaded the responsibility of picking tribes
mind bleeds grey (1:02:03 PM): and i felt like an idiot
Its Oh So Bjork (1:02:16 PM): i bitched about it for like 3 paragraphs in a confessional
mind bleeds grey (1:02:57 PM): i see, i mean i guess other people were more important then me
mind bleeds grey (1:03:22 PM): like its a little selfish of me to think i was a high priority
Its Oh So Bjork (1:03:46 PM): it's not even that
Its Oh So Bjork (1:03:56 PM): it's just like... when people are IMing me saying "pick me!"
Its Oh So Bjork (1:04:03 PM): it's an awkward situation
mind bleeds grey (1:05:09 PM): i just felt like i was made a fool of
mind bleeds grey (1:05:31 PM): i always spoke so highly of you and how you were my favorite person in the game
Its Oh So Bjork (1:06:08 PM): i spoke really highly of you but i had a lot of pressure on me at that time
mind bleeds grey (1:06:36 PM): i understand
mind bleeds grey (1:06:52 PM): i probably just expected way too much
mind bleeds grey (1:07:16 PM): and i suppose thats why i was so angry and just wanted revenge
mind bleeds grey (1:07:44 PM): im just in the chat watching people get picked
mind bleeds grey (1:08:04 PM): and realized that it was down to me and two people that were absolutely hated
mind bleeds grey (1:08:15 PM): so its just like
mind bleeds grey (1:08:24 PM): wow, what did i do to everyone
mind bleeds grey (1:08:43 PM): i mean i knew brian didnt like me so i didnt expect to be picked
Its Oh So Bjork (1:09:57 PM): i just know that the only two huron members that i picked, i was asked to pick. it's really awkward to have somebody ask you to pick them and then deny them
mind bleeds grey (1:12:30 PM): and after that point i just figured that
mind bleeds grey (1:12:43 PM): maybe i was worthless
mind bleeds grey (1:12:57 PM): i think the survey results stung even more
mind bleeds grey (1:13:03 PM): cause its like,
mind bleeds grey (1:13:15 PM): no one knew those would be used so everyone got to be completely honest
Its Oh So Bjork (1:13:32 PM): well to be honest?
Its Oh So Bjork (1:13:50 PM): almost everyone in this game knows like... at least 4 other people from before the game
Its Oh So Bjork (1:14:00 PM): i'm not somebody who had that priviledge
Its Oh So Bjork (1:14:09 PM): so i was genuinely shocked that i was even the most trusted
mind bleeds grey (1:16:23 PM): well maybe you just have a trustworthy personality
mind bleeds grey (1:16:36 PM): but anyways i hate that it had to reach this point
mind bleeds grey (1:16:40 PM): and i am HUGELY at fault
mind bleeds grey (1:16:51 PM): for going off assumptions
mind bleeds grey (1:17:02 PM): and reacting off emotion instead of my brain
mind bleeds grey (1:19:04 PM): and like whether you believe me or not
mind bleeds grey (1:19:06 PM): i am sorry
Its Oh So Bjork (1:20:19 PM): i dunno
Its Oh So Bjork (1:20:21 PM): i just want to get over it
mind bleeds grey (1:23:12 PM): ditto