Post by xia2xia on Nov 25, 2008 6:45:48 GMT -5
Dear Journal,
I know I just met you for less than a month, but i think i can trust you. So, 2 days ago I lost my best friend. He said he broke our friendship. I cried and cried all night. I don't expect you to understand, but I did cry because he broke our friendship but the way he said it. He said it like he didn't care at all. Like 11 months of friendship meant nothing to him.
I know he expected me to be on his side, but he didnt understand that I did that in my past. I fought for my friend. It even got me in trouble. And what did I gain for that? Nothing. My friend left me too.
And now history repeated itseld. It seems like I'm trapped in the same loop over and over again. I guess no matter where you are, what part of the world you are, the people are still the same. Still selfish and childish.
I'm not saying that I'm better than them, i sure am not. It's just sometimes they can't understand my thinking, and think I'm stupid for not listening to them. Hey guess what? I do have a brain and I'm not robot. I'm going to do what I think best for me. I'm done doing anything for anyone especially if it lead me to trouble.
And of course yesterday my friend went back to me and tried to "fix" the problem. Yeah the problem is "solved" but you have to admit there can't be a same relationship after you said to a friend that the friendship was over, how hard you try.
But luckily I think I'm blessed that I have other people that still care for me. People who will be there for you no matter what. My sister, my mom, my dad, and my friends.
I already said thank you to them, but thank you once again if you read this. You guys are the one of the best part of my life right now.
I can't give you guys anything in return, all i can offer is my love and support.
I know I just met you for less than a month, but i think i can trust you. So, 2 days ago I lost my best friend. He said he broke our friendship. I cried and cried all night. I don't expect you to understand, but I did cry because he broke our friendship but the way he said it. He said it like he didn't care at all. Like 11 months of friendship meant nothing to him.
I know he expected me to be on his side, but he didnt understand that I did that in my past. I fought for my friend. It even got me in trouble. And what did I gain for that? Nothing. My friend left me too.
And now history repeated itseld. It seems like I'm trapped in the same loop over and over again. I guess no matter where you are, what part of the world you are, the people are still the same. Still selfish and childish.
I'm not saying that I'm better than them, i sure am not. It's just sometimes they can't understand my thinking, and think I'm stupid for not listening to them. Hey guess what? I do have a brain and I'm not robot. I'm going to do what I think best for me. I'm done doing anything for anyone especially if it lead me to trouble.
And of course yesterday my friend went back to me and tried to "fix" the problem. Yeah the problem is "solved" but you have to admit there can't be a same relationship after you said to a friend that the friendship was over, how hard you try.
But luckily I think I'm blessed that I have other people that still care for me. People who will be there for you no matter what. My sister, my mom, my dad, and my friends.
I already said thank you to them, but thank you once again if you read this. You guys are the one of the best part of my life right now.
I can't give you guys anything in return, all i can offer is my love and support.